short thing #15

doesn't it all come true

When I have day dreams I generally believe that will all come true. Except for when the reality of life takes over and I realise how ridiculous it was to want this or that, not materially, but spiritually, romantically, familialy, ethically, occupationally, generationally, globally. Universally.

I desire.

But I have night dreams that are also as real sometimes as the day ones. I have an enigmatic power for dreaming. I also have something of a delusional flair for believing in them. Disregarding that which is presently in front of me. Believing my daydream life would be much more perfect and organised.

Much happier and full of love.

Passionate and full of orgasms and sunshine and nakedness and humanity.

Calmer and full of peace.

Sustainable and green and healthy and full of life.

And I worry what I’ve done.

(c) Samantha Florence, 2013.